So, I'm debating starting a new blog when it dawns on me...I don't even do this one, why on Earth would I start an other one? Then an other thought hits me, this blog is "pattee life" why on Earth would I start an other blog about a member of my famil???? WTHeck??
Ho hum.
I guess tomorrow starts with organization. Brina needs a place she can go to so she can do her homework. Well, how can I be a good example, if my desk looks like the living room threw up? I just cleaned the thing off, yet here I am...covered in what? I don't know what half this crap is. :-(
I keep thinking about Brina. It's finally hit home to Bill that perhaps Brina is a "special needs" child. Her meds are NOT working any more. We may as well not even give them to her. We can always tell if she's having a good day or a bad day by the way her hair is. Lately, she's been having a lot of frizzy hair days. Her eyes have seemingly become more distant also. I don't like it. I want my child back. It's time to get off our butts and be parents. W.O.W can wait. It will be there, she won't. Dinner can be made together, she can help. Walking around the block with her...well, that may not be an option...it's a pretty big block, and I don't wanna go down 92...yeah, lets rethink that one. Point being, I need to seriously restructure my time and attention. Brina is in danger of failing the 4th grade, because she is slipping farther and farther into no man's land. She's gotten lazy in class, and is either not paying attention, or CAN'T pay attention.
I can't do this. I am not strong enough. However, I have to be. She is mine. She belongs to me, she is my responsibility; no one elses. It is my job to protect and guide her through life.
Now, I just have to find out what else is "wrong".
Friday, December 17, 2010
Special Needs
What exactly qualifies a child as "special needs"?
I've been thinking about this for a LONG time. I have always thought there was something wrong other than just ADHD with my darling daughter. However, there is no other testing that we have done. (yes, that is my fault) When all I have to go on is mother instinct-how do you define "special needs".
I've been thinking about this for a LONG time. I have always thought there was something wrong other than just ADHD with my darling daughter. However, there is no other testing that we have done. (yes, that is my fault) When all I have to go on is mother instinct-how do you define "special needs".
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Roger
Roger died this past Tuesday.
I'm trying to share the link, but for some reason I can't. Every time I try to paste it, it won't put it there. Maybe I'll type it in?
http://obits.dignitymemorial.com/dignity-memorial/obituary.aspx?n=Roger-Davis&lc=1543&pid=146138323&mid=4416545
I hope that link works. It was a lot of work to jump back and forth to type it out.
Anyway, the funeral was today, and it was beautiful. However, I am VERY glad it's over. So many emotions, and I'm just ahhhhh, blahhhhhh.
I now have one day to recoup and get back to work. I'm looking forward to going to work, but at the same time I'm not so sure I'm ready. So many things....
So much drama too. I just can't believe some of the things that people do, even during a time of mourning. I mean...really-but that is an other blog. I'm too tired to even remotely think about this on a deeper level.
I'm trying to share the link, but for some reason I can't. Every time I try to paste it, it won't put it there. Maybe I'll type it in?
http://obits.dignitymemorial.com/dignity-memorial/obituary.aspx?n=Roger-Davis&lc=1543&pid=146138323&mid=4416545
I hope that link works. It was a lot of work to jump back and forth to type it out.
Anyway, the funeral was today, and it was beautiful. However, I am VERY glad it's over. So many emotions, and I'm just ahhhhh, blahhhhhh.
I now have one day to recoup and get back to work. I'm looking forward to going to work, but at the same time I'm not so sure I'm ready. So many things....
So much drama too. I just can't believe some of the things that people do, even during a time of mourning. I mean...really-but that is an other blog. I'm too tired to even remotely think about this on a deeper level.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
It's a Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood...
So, it's really nice out today, well, this morning. I was walking the dog, and enjoying the sun (been raining here in FL like it's WA.) I can't help but notice how quiet it is, except for a mechanical thumping in the far away background. I did notice it before. In fact it was the other morning while I was walking dog before work. It has a "War of the Worlds" kinda sound. Like, Luke Skywalker's going to be flying thru and around the legs of whatever it is that's coming this way. Tom Cruise should be running this way with his children at any time. Yeah, that kinda sound. Very creepy. Creepier still that I can hear it in the day time.
This is where we start to sing R.E.M. right?
This is where we start to sing R.E.M. right?
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Frugality
Every so often, I get bouts of wanting to save money and all that good stuff. Today is one of those days.
I was looking thru Lisa's blog, and followed a link of hers to salad in a jar...how completely awesome this woman is for figuring that out! OMGosh...I'm speechless! I'm so gonna do it.
Also, I was talking to Mel, and Dee about my mom wanting to make her own laundry soap. Holy Cow! I'm so gonna do that too! Actually, I've been reading the webpage Dee sent me to send to my mom, like...all day LOL. ahhh, Bill's probably thinking I'm crazy! (Well, he always thinks I'm crazy) but really, like for sure I wanna try this out! How awesome!
Our garden is doing awesome as well. I killed all of our seedlings. :-( Amber is a seed killer.
However, I cheated and bought plants. Now, it's kinda funky cause there is a "I bought" and a "I got" so pay close attn and I'll explain if you don't get it...
Tomato: I bought 2 plants, got 2 plants
Yellow Squash: I bought 1 plant, got 6 but I think one died
Banana Pepper: Bought and got 1 plant
Yellow Pepper: (they were out of green) Bought and got 1 plant
Jalepeno: bought and got 1 plant
Cucumber: bought 1 got 2
Watermelon: bought 1 got 3
Now, I only bought one pot of each thing except for tomatoes- but the other plants actually had many different seedlings. I didn't figure they would all live, and in actuality, only one plant died!
Also, while mowing last week, I found 2 extra tomato plants on the side of the house. AND THEY ARE GROWING TOMATOS ALREADY!!!!!!! How awesomly cool is that? :-D
Anywho....I need to get going. Time to plan ahead meals. (this is nothing new, I just don't usually blog about it.)
I was looking thru Lisa's blog, and followed a link of hers to salad in a jar...how completely awesome this woman is for figuring that out! OMGosh...I'm speechless! I'm so gonna do it.
Also, I was talking to Mel, and Dee about my mom wanting to make her own laundry soap. Holy Cow! I'm so gonna do that too! Actually, I've been reading the webpage Dee sent me to send to my mom, like...all day LOL. ahhh, Bill's probably thinking I'm crazy! (Well, he always thinks I'm crazy) but really, like for sure I wanna try this out! How awesome!
Our garden is doing awesome as well. I killed all of our seedlings. :-( Amber is a seed killer.
However, I cheated and bought plants. Now, it's kinda funky cause there is a "I bought" and a "I got" so pay close attn and I'll explain if you don't get it...
Tomato: I bought 2 plants, got 2 plants
Yellow Squash: I bought 1 plant, got 6 but I think one died
Banana Pepper: Bought and got 1 plant
Yellow Pepper: (they were out of green) Bought and got 1 plant
Jalepeno: bought and got 1 plant
Cucumber: bought 1 got 2
Watermelon: bought 1 got 3
Now, I only bought one pot of each thing except for tomatoes- but the other plants actually had many different seedlings. I didn't figure they would all live, and in actuality, only one plant died!
Also, while mowing last week, I found 2 extra tomato plants on the side of the house. AND THEY ARE GROWING TOMATOS ALREADY!!!!!!! How awesomly cool is that? :-D
Anywho....I need to get going. Time to plan ahead meals. (this is nothing new, I just don't usually blog about it.)
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Americans are Jerks!
Helping Zsusanna out with her History homework.
I know we are a horrible people, but Americans are absolutely horrible. Horrendous.
Our pasts (as a country) are just...wow...
This is nothing new, but everytime I do some research, or help one of my kids do research....I get so angry at the things "we" as a collective "people" or Country have done, are doing, and will do in the future, because "we" are better than anyone else in the world. Do "we" forget that "we" did not originate from here? And if you did originate from here, you got screwed.
It's not the American dream to work for that white picket fence. It's the American dream to HAVE that white picket fence, and have someone else pay for it and put it up.
Are there people out there who really DO want to earn their fence? Yes, but look thru our history books. Even though the people who write history books write only what they want us to know-peice it together. Who put up your grandparents fence? Who put up your great grandparents fence? Maybe it was your ancestors who dug the fence post holes, I don't know; but sometimes it just sickens me that "We the people" really means "Me me me and maybe you" sometimes.
On who's back are we riding?
Yes, someone will probably get mad at me...oooo, I'm scared...shaking in my bare feet. But I know that doesn't matter to you...nor will it. That's an other problem. We are allowed to have our opinions, but no one wants to hear it unless it's their opinion too.
How sad my children are more "grown up" than a lot of adults I know and know of.
I know we are a horrible people, but Americans are absolutely horrible. Horrendous.
Our pasts (as a country) are just...wow...
This is nothing new, but everytime I do some research, or help one of my kids do research....I get so angry at the things "we" as a collective "people" or Country have done, are doing, and will do in the future, because "we" are better than anyone else in the world. Do "we" forget that "we" did not originate from here? And if you did originate from here, you got screwed.
It's not the American dream to work for that white picket fence. It's the American dream to HAVE that white picket fence, and have someone else pay for it and put it up.
Are there people out there who really DO want to earn their fence? Yes, but look thru our history books. Even though the people who write history books write only what they want us to know-peice it together. Who put up your grandparents fence? Who put up your great grandparents fence? Maybe it was your ancestors who dug the fence post holes, I don't know; but sometimes it just sickens me that "We the people" really means "Me me me and maybe you" sometimes.
On who's back are we riding?
Yes, someone will probably get mad at me...oooo, I'm scared...shaking in my bare feet. But I know that doesn't matter to you...nor will it. That's an other problem. We are allowed to have our opinions, but no one wants to hear it unless it's their opinion too.
How sad my children are more "grown up" than a lot of adults I know and know of.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
ADD, Compulsive Disorder, and Speech Delay
What wonderful things is my child destined to do?
How awesome of Brina to be given this "gift", or I should say "gifts".
How strong of a person is she underneath all of this?
I know, my family knows.
I seldom go into detail about my "special needs" child because I have friends who I look at and admire because their special needs child has bigger (to me) challenges than mine. I look and I see beautiful child who are destined to be something great. Yes, GREAT I see how these wonderful spirits have changed lives. Shown us how to stop and smell the grass. To sit and watch the bee's. Or even how to slow down and just simply play.
My life has been greatly challenged and blessed by ADD. There have been times when I wonder what did I do to cause this, how did I let this happen. Mostly I just want to understand-but I don't think I ever will. Will that stop me? Absolutely not! This is my child for pete's sake. If I give up, who is going to fight for her? Who is going to stand/sit/kneel beside her and comfort/encourage/praise her?
Brina is the most kind and caring child. She gives of herself freely. She often overextends herself trying to help. (which is usually how she ends up in trouble) I can't imagine life with out her. Brina is Awesome.
I tried to talk to the dr about getting a new referal to the speech pathologist, but the MD told me there was no way she could make the insurance company pay for something they don't cover.
I'll never understand how 1% is enough to cut off a child's coverage. Oh wait...the "healthcare" in this country is changing....lets see how far behind she gets now. (I'm sorry, that's an other blog entry)
ADD...Compulsive Disorder...Speech Delay.
Maybe one at a time this seems alright...and I guess all together it's alright too, but in my moments of weakness, and seeing it all together sometimes it's a little overwhelming.
I don't feel like I have room to complain. I feel like a bad parent when I do complain. I feel like I've been given the greatest gift. How God entrusted me with this wonderful being he has deemed strong enough to carry these "gifts" (often called burdens). That he believes in me to be strong enough to be her mother.
How Great Thou Art.
How awesome of Brina to be given this "gift", or I should say "gifts".
How strong of a person is she underneath all of this?
I know, my family knows.
I seldom go into detail about my "special needs" child because I have friends who I look at and admire because their special needs child has bigger (to me) challenges than mine. I look and I see beautiful child who are destined to be something great. Yes, GREAT I see how these wonderful spirits have changed lives. Shown us how to stop and smell the grass. To sit and watch the bee's. Or even how to slow down and just simply play.
My life has been greatly challenged and blessed by ADD. There have been times when I wonder what did I do to cause this, how did I let this happen. Mostly I just want to understand-but I don't think I ever will. Will that stop me? Absolutely not! This is my child for pete's sake. If I give up, who is going to fight for her? Who is going to stand/sit/kneel beside her and comfort/encourage/praise her?
Brina is the most kind and caring child. She gives of herself freely. She often overextends herself trying to help. (which is usually how she ends up in trouble) I can't imagine life with out her. Brina is Awesome.
I tried to talk to the dr about getting a new referal to the speech pathologist, but the MD told me there was no way she could make the insurance company pay for something they don't cover.
I'll never understand how 1% is enough to cut off a child's coverage. Oh wait...the "healthcare" in this country is changing....lets see how far behind she gets now. (I'm sorry, that's an other blog entry)
ADD...Compulsive Disorder...Speech Delay.
Maybe one at a time this seems alright...and I guess all together it's alright too, but in my moments of weakness, and seeing it all together sometimes it's a little overwhelming.
I don't feel like I have room to complain. I feel like a bad parent when I do complain. I feel like I've been given the greatest gift. How God entrusted me with this wonderful being he has deemed strong enough to carry these "gifts" (often called burdens). That he believes in me to be strong enough to be her mother.
How Great Thou Art.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Been a while
I go thru these phases...
Blog the heck out of life, then when life gets in the way, I leave for a bit...then I come back and life is blogged again.
Dean happened to remind me that I have a blog. (not that I forgot, I just havn't been here)
tonight is tax night. I always want to get it out of the way. I never understood the people who wait until the last minute. Or at least the people who know they are getting a refund and wait until the last minute.
Zsusanna and Stephanie both made honor roll.
Oh yeah, I should link our RockStar Video LOL. Crap, I can't remember our photobucket password :(
WOOT, I remembered it! Now I'm just waiting for it to upload so I can link it here. Kids and I enjoyed making it, and wanna make more. We just have to figure out what song to make next. LOL!!!!!
zsusanna says hola:D
OMGosh...ninja'd by a freakin' kid. /slap
Well, photobucket says I can't upload my RockStar video...apparently it's a violation of something....blah blah blah....I didn't know that....and well....crap.
Blog the heck out of life, then when life gets in the way, I leave for a bit...then I come back and life is blogged again.
Dean happened to remind me that I have a blog. (not that I forgot, I just havn't been here)
tonight is tax night. I always want to get it out of the way. I never understood the people who wait until the last minute. Or at least the people who know they are getting a refund and wait until the last minute.
Zsusanna and Stephanie both made honor roll.
Oh yeah, I should link our RockStar Video LOL. Crap, I can't remember our photobucket password :(
WOOT, I remembered it! Now I'm just waiting for it to upload so I can link it here. Kids and I enjoyed making it, and wanna make more. We just have to figure out what song to make next. LOL!!!!!
zsusanna says hola:D
OMGosh...ninja'd by a freakin' kid. /slap
Well, photobucket says I can't upload my RockStar video...apparently it's a violation of something....blah blah blah....I didn't know that....and well....crap.
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