Happy New Years Eve!

So here we are again.  The end of a year, yet an other end.  Now come all the resolutions.  The I don't wanna do _____ any more, or the I wanna do more _____.  It becomes a cycle of promises we make to ourselves, that no one ever keeps for any longer than at the most a month. 
I'm no different.  (I know, it's hard to imagine; me princess of all that is good and wonderful. LOL.  Ok, moving on, nothing to see.)  I like to say I'll lose weight, I'll become more organized (that is a hysterical joke to anyone who knows me), I'll go to bed on time (my kids will think THAT is hilarious),  all this with the FULL intent of actually doing it.  But then I begin to trick myself into "one time won't hurt me".  So, I eat that candy bar, because it's only one.  Or I'll stay up and watch just "one more episode".  Then I find myself saying "Well, I did it last night and I was ok, so I'll do it again, because I can handle it".  Next thing I know, I'm sitting on the couch eating a snickers, drinking a coke and watching Star Trek until midnight!

Vicious cycle I tell ya.

So, this year I'm going to keep doing what it is I have been doing, simply because if it ain't broke, don't fix it right?
I'm going to start school this year, so why add to the stress?  I'm beginning 2 years of intensive RN training, that if at any time I fall under an 80% I fail.  No pressure.

So, I'll continue on my way, buying stuff at the dollar store (which, I totally think my sister should get a discount for working there; then I could get a family discount. :-D), going to Winn-Dixie to buy my groceries because of their gas rewards program.  (oh yeah, forgot to tell ya'll that I jumped grocery stores)  Things that help me and my family save money.  Things that make our family work.  Sure things will get rough in the New Year.  Sure things will get so bad that I'll wonder what I was thinking.  But what will get us through these hard times is the knowledge that things WILL get better, and now is not forever.

Our future is ours alone to shape.  We can't control everything that happens to us, but we CAN control how we respond to it.

I'm so horrible at this sometimes

We've been sick at our house.  Bill's been sick for weeks, and I'm just getting over a week long cold, actually since it's Wednesday, I'm getting over a 10 day cold.  I came down with it the last weekend I worked.  Stephanie is now sick with what we had, and on top of it, it's "the most wonderful time of the year"

This is the time of year when everything is beating down on my head like I'm in charge. 
There are so many things that I should be doing right now.

1. blogging.  Oh wait, that's what I'm doing
2. setting up my school notebooks
3. (this should really be a subset of #2) printing out the work my teacher has e-mailed the class.
4. compiling my Visiting Teaching information.
5. writing a letter to the Hillsborough County School District
6. deciding what bill I'm not going to pay because I have to buy expensive books for school
7. deciding which child to berate (not really people, relax-sheesh)
8. watching Star Trek Next Generation
9. going to bed
10. wrapping presents
11. reading
12. making out Christmas cards (I know they won't get there in time)
13. writing a few letters
14. cleaning the house
15. cleaning the girls rooms (I know they'd love that one)
16. figure out what's left to buy for Christmas
17. figuring out how much money I have to spend on my school books
18. taking away the Play Station eye-I'm sick of hearing it
19. walking away from the computer so I don't freak out
20. catch up on my blogging-I even took PICTURES!!!!!
21. figure out when Santa leaves the North Pole (norad rocks)
22. see if Stephanie's fever has come back
23. make sure Brina has cleaned up the kitchen properly
24. change the chores around so we can get use to me not being an active member of this household
25. get over this OCD clicking of my fingers things...for petes sake, no one-especially me-wants to hear me clicking out whatever song is in my head before I can talk to them, or even finish a single thought!!!!!
26. exercise
27. journal
28. pet the dog
29. cut the dogs toe nails
30. walk the dog
31. take a shower
32. take a $5 bath (we have a garden tub, so we call it the $5 bath cause it probably takes that much water to fill it up)
33. clean out the van
34. play tetris
35. play pipeworks (my new obsession)

This is why nothing ever gets done with me.  I sit down to do one thing, and then all of a sudden I'm hit with ALL the things that I think I need to do.  EVERY SINGLE THING.  I don't know if I even need to do all of these things; yet there are things on there that I KNOW I need to do, and there are things on there that I know I want to do.  Whatever people!

Can you see my frustration?  Can you feel it?  Can you so completely understand that you are right here with me clicking your fingers in discontent to the tune of....oh lets go with No Rain by Blind Melon?  Between the dog jumping up on me for who knows what reason, and the children playing with the PS eye; I think I just may end up on the hill wearing my bumble bee outfit dancing in the flowers too.  I wonder if netflix has White Christmas.....nope-how stupid is that.

Alright.  This has turned into a great big fat rant, and that is not at all what I wanted it to be.  I wanted to come and enlighten you on my wonderous Christmas spending spree at the dollar tree. 

Ahhh, I think I'll try to start again tomorrow.  Maybe show a few pics that I took just for the blog.  Maybe even not go off on some side rant that people will try to have me committed for.  LOL.....maybe, just maybe I'll read this tomorrow and think HOLY CRAP!  WHAT WAS I THINKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!