Apparently I don't. My mind wont shut off.
I keep thinking.
Thinking about kidney disease, and the 68% I got on my test. We ground our kids for that! I am not studying right. I'm allowing myself to have a life. I can't do it. Its not going to work. Sure with the 10 extra credit points I got an 88%. But with out I failed that test.
And thinking about this Tampa General crap in a few hours. I'm glkad we have to retrain. I think I forgot.
Oh yeah and this thing about the mailbox. Bill said it looks like someone tried to pull it out of the ground.
And perhaps the worst yet is about the dogs. I keep replaying sad moments in my head. When Gator got hit; the look in Brandens eyes the last time. I actually thought about if Coco got hit by a car.
Why am I doing this to myself? I don't want to. BELIEVE ME!!!! I do NOT want to do this to myself.
I can't get to sleep.
Its after midnight.
I have to be up in 4 hours.
Its going to be a rough day tomorrow.
But for now I guess I close my eyes and TRY to force thoughts out of my head.
Wish me luck
