I got my Tampa General ID badge today. Tomorrow we may or may not go do an orientation at TGH for clinicals. However, the "worry" over that will have to wait-I have a math test to study for tomorrow. The big test. The one that if we fail, we are unable to pass medications in the hospital. The one that we only get to take twice, and no matter how well we do in the classroom setting-if we fail, well, we fail the entire semester. So, no pressure right?
Today I've been studying (before I went into Tampa) math calculations. I full believe that who ever made up the apothecary system of measurement needs to be shot. Not fatally, but just enough that they can listen to the medical staff calculate how many drams of whatever to give him/her to save their life. Oh, the meds don't come in drams? you need me to calculate milligrams? Let me bust out my calculator...this'll only take a few minutes. What? you don't have a few minutes? your losing blood by the ounce? Wait, let me translate that into metric. I'm telling you...apothecary translation will be my downfall. I have not even STARTED on Fahrenheit to Celsius. 5/9 or 9/5 can kiss my big old tukus! (please don't correct my slang-I'm already doing it lol.)
As the parental units of this home, the spouse and I have decided to ban all carbonated high fructose corn syrup items in this house. That includes us as well. It's going to kill us all if we don't. There are (as I already know, and my dearest Imzadi has pointed out so eloquently) many benefits of not drinking pop. (that's "soda" to all you non-Yankee's) I have in the past given up pop, one time for more than a year, but all it takes is a few drinks to get back on the addiction train. CHOO CHOO, next stop headachville, and aggitation station. Luckily I have found a comprable subsitute. Crystal Light makes a grape with caffiene in it. Doesn't taste quite as good as Target's grape, but if I mix it together, it tastes like grape kool-aid. Bill and I are going cold turkey. No more pop after tonight. We are going to save a ton of money too. I know I said somewhere that we are poor, living frugally so we can splurge, and well, this was one of our splurges. By doing this, we may off-set the cost of healthier alternatives (you know, because it's so flippin' expensive to eat healthy...and they wonder why poor people are fat...who's the stupid ones there government?)
So, now the question of the night is...what to have for dinner? I have not been grocery shopping for the next week, I've been busy studying stupid apothecary conversions.
Friday, February 3, 2012
Friday, January 20, 2012
Week 2 of nursing school and garden thoughts
So here I am. I made it into the RN program at the local community college. We've begun the nursing process, and I found that I need to change my mindset. They asked the question in class "What would you do if you got a blood pressure of 180/110?" My first thought was "get the nurse". Problem? I'll be the nurse. EEK! So, time to change my mindset and realize that I'm going to have to learn how to take care of that person. What would I do if I had that persons life in my hands?
So, it's time to make sure that I know who is responsible-and that happens to be me. The lab instructor on Tuesday told us, that when we walk into a patients room, make it ours. We are in charge of that patient. That patients life is in OUR hands. OURS. Not their family, not the doctor, us, as the nurse. I have to change my mindset. It's going to be a slow process, but I WILL change. Mentally it's going to be a struggle, because I've been in the CNA position for so long. My mom (who is a nurse herself) says that I'll have no problem switching over, but at week 2, I really havn't even begun to change. I know, it's only week 2 right?
I have an AWESOME support system. I know I can do this. Anything I need, all I really need to do is snap my fingers and pretty much POOF things appear that I need. I'm DEAD seroius. I'm so thankful for the system I have. I have the most supportive husband in the world, and my children completely understand why I'm not home, and why I have taken myself off the chore list. I have friends at work who will work for me if I need time off for school, and nurses at work who are willing to speak to me in nursing terms so that I can learn the lingo. I would not be able to do this without my family.
Now, on to the garden. I've been thinking a lot about it this year already. It's time to start planning out where the thing is going to be this year. I had a pretty good production last year, but I was thinking of keeping everything out of the ground. I know, what am I thinking right? A garden not in the ground? Am I crazy? The answer to that is probably yes. I mean, can I really work full time, go to school double time, and still tend a garden? I'm going to have to go with a yes on that. I'm consdering using "upside down" gardening. My mother-in-law bought me a do-hickey to use last year (ok, like 2 years now that the calendar has flipped). I had every intention of using it, and matter of fact, I had something PLANNED to put in it, but by the time I got around to it, it was too late in the year to plant anything. I know they work, and I won't have to weed the darn things.
My dilema is now figuring out what I want in the garden. I've researched what to grow in them, and what to put 'on' them. Yes, so you don't waste space, you can totally grow stuff on top! Like lettuce and cabbage. I could probably also grow radishes up there too. I think that would be great to have ready made salad. It was sure nice last year. Need tomatoes? Go get them out of the garden. It was nice to send kids to get stuff out of the garden when I needed it. Gotta get my mind working on the details here.
but first...off to study!
So, it's time to make sure that I know who is responsible-and that happens to be me. The lab instructor on Tuesday told us, that when we walk into a patients room, make it ours. We are in charge of that patient. That patients life is in OUR hands. OURS. Not their family, not the doctor, us, as the nurse. I have to change my mindset. It's going to be a slow process, but I WILL change. Mentally it's going to be a struggle, because I've been in the CNA position for so long. My mom (who is a nurse herself) says that I'll have no problem switching over, but at week 2, I really havn't even begun to change. I know, it's only week 2 right?
I have an AWESOME support system. I know I can do this. Anything I need, all I really need to do is snap my fingers and pretty much POOF things appear that I need. I'm DEAD seroius. I'm so thankful for the system I have. I have the most supportive husband in the world, and my children completely understand why I'm not home, and why I have taken myself off the chore list. I have friends at work who will work for me if I need time off for school, and nurses at work who are willing to speak to me in nursing terms so that I can learn the lingo. I would not be able to do this without my family.
Now, on to the garden. I've been thinking a lot about it this year already. It's time to start planning out where the thing is going to be this year. I had a pretty good production last year, but I was thinking of keeping everything out of the ground. I know, what am I thinking right? A garden not in the ground? Am I crazy? The answer to that is probably yes. I mean, can I really work full time, go to school double time, and still tend a garden? I'm going to have to go with a yes on that. I'm consdering using "upside down" gardening. My mother-in-law bought me a do-hickey to use last year (ok, like 2 years now that the calendar has flipped). I had every intention of using it, and matter of fact, I had something PLANNED to put in it, but by the time I got around to it, it was too late in the year to plant anything. I know they work, and I won't have to weed the darn things.
My dilema is now figuring out what I want in the garden. I've researched what to grow in them, and what to put 'on' them. Yes, so you don't waste space, you can totally grow stuff on top! Like lettuce and cabbage. I could probably also grow radishes up there too. I think that would be great to have ready made salad. It was sure nice last year. Need tomatoes? Go get them out of the garden. It was nice to send kids to get stuff out of the garden when I needed it. Gotta get my mind working on the details here.
but first...off to study!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Happy New Years Eve!
So here we are again. The end of a year, yet an other end. Now come all the resolutions. The I don't wanna do _____ any more, or the I wanna do more _____. It becomes a cycle of promises we make to ourselves, that no one ever keeps for any longer than at the most a month.
I'm no different. (I know, it's hard to imagine; me princess of all that is good and wonderful. LOL. Ok, moving on, nothing to see.) I like to say I'll lose weight, I'll become more organized (that is a hysterical joke to anyone who knows me), I'll go to bed on time (my kids will think THAT is hilarious), all this with the FULL intent of actually doing it. But then I begin to trick myself into "one time won't hurt me". So, I eat that candy bar, because it's only one. Or I'll stay up and watch just "one more episode". Then I find myself saying "Well, I did it last night and I was ok, so I'll do it again, because I can handle it". Next thing I know, I'm sitting on the couch eating a snickers, drinking a coke and watching Star Trek until midnight!
Vicious cycle I tell ya.
So, this year I'm going to keep doing what it is I have been doing, simply because if it ain't broke, don't fix it right?
I'm going to start school this year, so why add to the stress? I'm beginning 2 years of intensive RN training, that if at any time I fall under an 80% I fail. No pressure.
So, I'll continue on my way, buying stuff at the dollar store (which, I totally think my sister should get a discount for working there; then I could get a family discount. :-D), going to Winn-Dixie to buy my groceries because of their gas rewards program. (oh yeah, forgot to tell ya'll that I jumped grocery stores) Things that help me and my family save money. Things that make our family work. Sure things will get rough in the New Year. Sure things will get so bad that I'll wonder what I was thinking. But what will get us through these hard times is the knowledge that things WILL get better, and now is not forever.
Our future is ours alone to shape. We can't control everything that happens to us, but we CAN control how we respond to it.
I'm no different. (I know, it's hard to imagine; me princess of all that is good and wonderful. LOL. Ok, moving on, nothing to see.) I like to say I'll lose weight, I'll become more organized (that is a hysterical joke to anyone who knows me), I'll go to bed on time (my kids will think THAT is hilarious), all this with the FULL intent of actually doing it. But then I begin to trick myself into "one time won't hurt me". So, I eat that candy bar, because it's only one. Or I'll stay up and watch just "one more episode". Then I find myself saying "Well, I did it last night and I was ok, so I'll do it again, because I can handle it". Next thing I know, I'm sitting on the couch eating a snickers, drinking a coke and watching Star Trek until midnight!
Vicious cycle I tell ya.
So, this year I'm going to keep doing what it is I have been doing, simply because if it ain't broke, don't fix it right?
I'm going to start school this year, so why add to the stress? I'm beginning 2 years of intensive RN training, that if at any time I fall under an 80% I fail. No pressure.
So, I'll continue on my way, buying stuff at the dollar store (which, I totally think my sister should get a discount for working there; then I could get a family discount. :-D), going to Winn-Dixie to buy my groceries because of their gas rewards program. (oh yeah, forgot to tell ya'll that I jumped grocery stores) Things that help me and my family save money. Things that make our family work. Sure things will get rough in the New Year. Sure things will get so bad that I'll wonder what I was thinking. But what will get us through these hard times is the knowledge that things WILL get better, and now is not forever.
Our future is ours alone to shape. We can't control everything that happens to us, but we CAN control how we respond to it.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
I'm so horrible at this sometimes
We've been sick at our house. Bill's been sick for weeks, and I'm just getting over a week long cold, actually since it's Wednesday, I'm getting over a 10 day cold. I came down with it the last weekend I worked. Stephanie is now sick with what we had, and on top of it, it's "the most wonderful time of the year"
This is the time of year when everything is beating down on my head like I'm in charge.
There are so many things that I should be doing right now.
This is why nothing ever gets done with me. I sit down to do one thing, and then all of a sudden I'm hit with ALL the things that I think I need to do. EVERY SINGLE THING. I don't know if I even need to do all of these things; yet there are things on there that I KNOW I need to do, and there are things on there that I know I want to do. Whatever people!
Can you see my frustration? Can you feel it? Can you so completely understand that you are right here with me clicking your fingers in discontent to the tune of....oh lets go with No Rain by Blind Melon? Between the dog jumping up on me for who knows what reason, and the children playing with the PS eye; I think I just may end up on the hill wearing my bumble bee outfit dancing in the flowers too. I wonder if netflix has White Christmas.....nope-how stupid is that.
Alright. This has turned into a great big fat rant, and that is not at all what I wanted it to be. I wanted to come and enlighten you on my wonderous Christmas spending spree at the dollar tree.
Ahhh, I think I'll try to start again tomorrow. Maybe show a few pics that I took just for the blog. Maybe even not go off on some side rant that people will try to have me committed for. LOL.....maybe, just maybe I'll read this tomorrow and think HOLY CRAP! WHAT WAS I THINKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is the time of year when everything is beating down on my head like I'm in charge.
There are so many things that I should be doing right now.
- blogging. Oh wait, that's what I'm doing
- setting up my school notebooks
- (this should really be a subset of #2) printing out the work my teacher has e-mailed the class.
- compiling my Visiting Teaching information.
- writing a letter to the Hillsborough County School District
- deciding what bill I'm not going to pay because I have to buy expensive books for school
- deciding which child to berate (not really people, relax-sheesh)
- watching Star Trek Next Generation
- going to bed
- wrapping presents
- reading
- making out Christmas cards (I know they won't get there in time)
- writing a few letters
- cleaning the house
- cleaning the girls rooms (I know they'd love that one)
- figure out what's left to buy for Christmas
- figuring out how much money I have to spend on my school books
- taking away the Play Station eye-I'm sick of hearing it
- walking away from the computer so I don't freak out
- catch up on my blogging-I even took PICTURES!!!!!
- figure out when Santa leaves the North Pole (norad rocks)
- see if Stephanie's fever has come back
- make sure Brina has cleaned up the kitchen properly
- change the chores around so we can get use to me not being an active member of this household
- get over this OCD clicking of my fingers things...for petes sake, no one-especially me-wants to hear me clicking out whatever song is in my head before I can talk to them, or even finish a single thought!!!!!
- exercise
- journal
- pet the dog
- cut the dogs toe nails
- walk the dog
- take a shower
- take a $5 bath (we have a garden tub, so we call it the $5 bath cause it probably takes that much water to fill it up)
- clean out the van
- play tetris
- play pipeworks (my new obsession)
This is why nothing ever gets done with me. I sit down to do one thing, and then all of a sudden I'm hit with ALL the things that I think I need to do. EVERY SINGLE THING. I don't know if I even need to do all of these things; yet there are things on there that I KNOW I need to do, and there are things on there that I know I want to do. Whatever people!
Can you see my frustration? Can you feel it? Can you so completely understand that you are right here with me clicking your fingers in discontent to the tune of....oh lets go with No Rain by Blind Melon? Between the dog jumping up on me for who knows what reason, and the children playing with the PS eye; I think I just may end up on the hill wearing my bumble bee outfit dancing in the flowers too. I wonder if netflix has White Christmas.....nope-how stupid is that.
Alright. This has turned into a great big fat rant, and that is not at all what I wanted it to be. I wanted to come and enlighten you on my wonderous Christmas spending spree at the dollar tree.
Ahhh, I think I'll try to start again tomorrow. Maybe show a few pics that I took just for the blog. Maybe even not go off on some side rant that people will try to have me committed for. LOL.....maybe, just maybe I'll read this tomorrow and think HOLY CRAP! WHAT WAS I THINKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Frustration
So far this week our bank balance is in the black. Awesome! Yeah, not really. I have 22 miles left in the van, and I know Bill is running low. Tonight is Church. This is the second time we've missed Church because we couldn't afford gas. Wonderful right?
alright, today is a different day than the previous paragraph. Infact, that was last night. This morning I put $2 in the gas tank. TWO WHOLE DOLLARS. Hey, it worked out. So, we have a whopping $.62 in the bank. ALRIGHTY! PARTY!
Good news though, I got my financial aide straightened out.
alright, today is a different day than the previous paragraph. Infact, that was last night. This morning I put $2 in the gas tank. TWO WHOLE DOLLARS. Hey, it worked out. So, we have a whopping $.62 in the bank. ALRIGHTY! PARTY!
Good news though, I got my financial aide straightened out.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Been a long time since I......
well, the answer certainly isn't "rock and rolled". Rock and roll is a part of this house all day everyday. Even today Zsusanna busted out the violin and played some rock for us! Woo Hoo! Rockin' on the violin! Anywho... I have a bad habit of going long periods of time and not blogging. BAD BLOGGER, BAD BAD BLOGGER.
Recently I've considered selling stuff on etsy. WHAT? ME? noooo, not possibly true. I've always wanted to make money
on crocheting. I LOVE to crochet, and it is relaxing (unless the dog runs away with my skein and knots it up.)
I see so many people on there selling their wares, and I think....I could do that-couldn't I? Bill asked me today, how long would it take me to make a snowman. It would take a day if I sat my butt down and did it from start to finish, not surfing the net, not checking out the forums, not playing WoW. Yes, if I sat down and treated it like a job, I bet I could make SOME kind of money off my goods. Problem is... me.
I enjoy what I do, when I do it. I don't have a set pattern that I follow, I make it up as I go along. That means, I don't ususally get the same item twice. Snowmen, well, that is a LITTLE bit different, because a ball is a ball, unless I think I wanna change it up, then I get like, oh, an oval or something.
So, although it is true that I could probably make a little money on the side selling my incredibly wonderful stuff, I know myself, and I'm a bit lazy. Yes, I said it, and I put it right out there on that table. Hey, at least I admit to it. No trying to sugar coat anything. I'm good at my job, I bust my butt at my job, when I get home at the end of the day, I'm tired and I don't want to be pressured into making something. If I WANT to make something, that is completely different. However, I fear that if I make something because I'm going to sell it, that I will become so anal retentive about it having to be perfect, I just may make everyone's life a living nightmare. On the other hand, because I know it may only take me a day to put an item fully together from start to finish, I may put it off and put it off, and then when I realize I only have "X" amount of time to go, then I"ll bust my butt to finish, just barely making the deadline, and still being anal about things not looking right, and then having to listen to whomever (myself) berate me by telling me "If you had started this earlier, you wouldn't feel like this." Sounds like I know myself pretty well huh?
I know I can do this. I KNOW I can do this. I'm not stupid by any means, and I make pretty good stuff; but why doesn't that translate any farther than my mouth? Why can't I realize it? Hmmm, something to think about maybe. However, I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to make money on my "wares". See my issue?
ahhh, if only it were that easy to convince myself of my own worth.
Recently I've considered selling stuff on etsy. WHAT? ME? noooo, not possibly true. I've always wanted to make money
on crocheting. I LOVE to crochet, and it is relaxing (unless the dog runs away with my skein and knots it up.)
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| Making the Grab! |
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| Making a run for it! |
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| What the blue looked like when we got it back |
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| "Ooooh, I got it again!" |
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| Not giving it up so easy this time |
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| and this is him trying to run away with the white. See what he did to the blue? |
I see so many people on there selling their wares, and I think....I could do that-couldn't I? Bill asked me today, how long would it take me to make a snowman. It would take a day if I sat my butt down and did it from start to finish, not surfing the net, not checking out the forums, not playing WoW. Yes, if I sat down and treated it like a job, I bet I could make SOME kind of money off my goods. Problem is... me.
I enjoy what I do, when I do it. I don't have a set pattern that I follow, I make it up as I go along. That means, I don't ususally get the same item twice. Snowmen, well, that is a LITTLE bit different, because a ball is a ball, unless I think I wanna change it up, then I get like, oh, an oval or something.
So, although it is true that I could probably make a little money on the side selling my incredibly wonderful stuff, I know myself, and I'm a bit lazy. Yes, I said it, and I put it right out there on that table. Hey, at least I admit to it. No trying to sugar coat anything. I'm good at my job, I bust my butt at my job, when I get home at the end of the day, I'm tired and I don't want to be pressured into making something. If I WANT to make something, that is completely different. However, I fear that if I make something because I'm going to sell it, that I will become so anal retentive about it having to be perfect, I just may make everyone's life a living nightmare. On the other hand, because I know it may only take me a day to put an item fully together from start to finish, I may put it off and put it off, and then when I realize I only have "X" amount of time to go, then I"ll bust my butt to finish, just barely making the deadline, and still being anal about things not looking right, and then having to listen to whomever (myself) berate me by telling me "If you had started this earlier, you wouldn't feel like this." Sounds like I know myself pretty well huh?
I know I can do this. I KNOW I can do this. I'm not stupid by any means, and I make pretty good stuff; but why doesn't that translate any farther than my mouth? Why can't I realize it? Hmmm, something to think about maybe. However, I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to make money on my "wares". See my issue?
ahhh, if only it were that easy to convince myself of my own worth.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
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